S lept at 11+ last night and I woke up to a racing heartbeat at 1am. Had a nightmare. A really terrifying and frightening one.
A vicious female evil presence or rather, a ghost, wanted my life in my dream! It was due to my mistake (sighhhhh) two years ago and 'she' wanted to take revenge. I was running and hiding at my home. Even held my mum's hand tightly and wanted so much to tell her what I did two years ago. My regret. My greatest regret.
Then suddenly, I found myself running to my bro's room and saw Bro and his gf there. When XiaoLian turned to look at me, her face was the color of a deadly blue. She seemed so inhuman. I felt so lost and scared. I took a knife and dunno whether I should trust XiaoLian. Will she hurt me as well?
In the end, I stabbed the ghost instead, repeatedly....
The next moment, I woke up with a start and laid there motionless. I dun dare to move at all. My heart was in my mouth and I was still feeling frightened. The dream seemed so real. I started to hold my Buddha pendant tightly in my hand and prayed in my heart. Then I slowly reached out for my hp and realised it was 1am. Remorse engulfed me and I began to weep.
Dried my tears with my blanket and I looked around the room in the dark. Still feeling uneasy, I msg him and asked if the rituals were really done back then. He assured me and our conversation always ended sour. I wasn't taunting in anyway fyi. I just wanted to know the truth badly. The guilt will always be there, deep inside me, I guess.
Sigh.
Dun dare to close my eyes after that but I gotta wake up to prepare for work at 5 plus. Finally managed to fall into slumber again at 230am. However when I woke at 530am, I was feeling rather breathless the whole morning. Must be due to the restless night I had.
Sigh......
Labels: Recovering Phase
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