Sunday, November 08, 2009
Thought & was looking forward to today cuz I would be gettin my laptop. My very own! However, that bastard lied to me again and gave me false hopes everytime. I even bathe, did make-up and got ready so that when he called, we could meet straight away. He only replied a few smses and then vanished again despite my numerous smses to him. Haizz. Why he always treat me liddat?
Owed me $800 and it has been draggin. Im broke too.. Everytime whenever he needs financial help, I would not hesitate or wait to transfer the money to him. Cuz I dun wish him to get into any trouble outside or go hungry. But everytime when I needed his help back badly, he only gave me more lies.
And now, after realizing he will never want to give up that CHINA bastard child of his, I have finally decided to give him up for good.
I dun wan to get involved with you anymore. Im really so sick & tired of everything already. Since you are not willing to pay the debt, kindly leave me alone & vanish from my world!
I rather be alone then to be led on by you again & be heart broken again & again in time to come... It has been five years already.
It's more than enough for me. Enough of suffering.
Goodbye. I hate you.
Labels: Recovering Phase, Wrath N' Fury
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7:27 PM
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Sian lor, my roster planned by the company was like shit. Worked 6 days in a row then got off 1 day. Worked another 1 day and next day off. Then worked 1 day again and got 2 days off. Suay Suay I got bad toothache last night at 4plus in the morning and I'm on morning shift somemore. Did pop a panadol but the pain did not subside. Really had no choice but to call in MC again so that I can visit the dentist.
Really DULAN lor, why the pain dun come when I was off the past 2 days? Cuz now my company has started a new incentive scheme... If there's no MC for the month, we will get additional $100. I thought I surely got no problem getting it this month as I'll only be working for 3 weeks. Will be going for my holiday next week finally. How was I to know I will get toothache at this time. Aaahhhh! Qi Si Wo Le! And I cant risk going to work cuz the pain was so intense that my head and even my EYE hurt! Scary! I would have to rely on panadol the whole day which is soo bad for my health.
Plus my trip is approaching. I dun wan go there this cannot eat that cannot eat too. Dentist said my teeth are decaying real bad, he only filled 3 of the more serious de. Think I can claim back some of the money from the company. Darn broke lah!
Some of my darlings left for ION outlet le. DOing the setup to prepare for its grand opening on the 21st this month. I will miss ya Sherry!! Dun forget our papierpoupee in months to come!!
Labels: This N' That
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5:48 PM
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Michael Jackson died! Only 50 yrs old... There goes the King of PoP... Poof!!
Super hungry right now. Munched a lil' of bro's Doritos chips while he's out. Forgot I had my early dinner at 4pm earlier! Sucks. Stupid company. Who in the right mind will have dinner as early as 4pm??!
Something eerie happened at work juz now. It was already 10pm, shop's closing hours. Shawn went in to off the music. Shortly... the music came on again. Everyone was shocked. Shawn claimed that he had turned the volume softer before stopping it. But when the player came alive, the music was booming. Scary!
Bro came home last night from work and warned Sis and I who were both in the living room not to stand close to him. I thought he's gonna fart. Later thought his socks were darn smelly. But the truth was that he had checked in a customer days ago and only realised yest when the customer was leaving the country, was stopped at the Customs as he was confirmed to have contracted H1N1 virus. OMG!!! Hopefully bro did not bring the virus back home!!!
Had eye infection recently. Got mc and was not allowed to wear contact lens. Went back to work yest and today. Luckily the redness had started to subside. I dun wanna be a blind mice!
Sales had been bad last month and worse this month. Commission fcukin pathetic and everyone starts to slack already. Target was sky high everytime, it's almost mission impossible to even hit a 90% most of the time. I'm tired working in such a sucky company. Sibeh SUCKS AH!!!
Labels: This N' That
Written @
12:42 AM
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Been feeling rather breathless these days. Always felt as if there's not enough oxygen in my lungs. Knee bones giving me prob again and it seemed that the condition has deterioriated. I gotta keep bending my legs to stop or soothe the aching and I always hear the sound of my bones cracking. The aching has become unbearable already and if the pills I am taking doesn't help, I might have to go for an X-ray. Doc said might be due to wear and tear... Duhzzz. I'm really getting old.
Stupid ulcers have been in my mouth for 1 month plus already. After the current ones healed, new ones started appearing. It's already the fifth-sixth consecutive ulcers le. I'm immune to the pain in my mouth already too.
Going to work these days is machiam going to a war zone. As if the current bitches are not giving us enough hell, those new ones they've employed aren't better too. FUCK! Lotsa conflicts kept rising and I'm really tired at the mere thought of going to work. My gals and I were pratically dragging ourselves to work everytime. Hopefully the letter we are going to submit will help us in one way or another.
Have already booked the hotel accomodation for my upcoming trip. Only the coaches are not booked yet. Most probably will head down Golden Mile next week to complete my booking. Can't wait for July to arrive. At least I can get away from the stressful country and celebrate my birthday out of boring SG.
Shall be meeting Pauline after she knock off later. Some shopping for my trip is still undone. Hopefully I am able to find something cheap and good when I'm out!
Intro my airport ex-colleague, Sharon to Viyond as the latter was travelling to China and she was told by her friend to help purchase some skincare & perfume. At least I'm able to help Sharon get some sales (think total is about 1k bah) and Viyond for someone nice to assist her.
Enjoy your trip there LambChop! (Even tho I really hate that mutha-fucking country....)
Come back safely in one piece yeah! =P
Labels: Sucky Job, This N' That
Written @
3:16 PM
Monday, June 01, 2009
Had lunch just now with 4Vs... Viyond, Vivian, Vicent and Victor. Haha... We met at TPY Ctrl cuz Viyond needed to pass me some tickets which I've asked her to help me buy... Anyway the other 3Vs, I also dunno well de. Only went to Msia once with Vivian and her bf, Vincent. I guess Victor whom I just got to know today is Viyond's current colleague bah.
Viyond and her frenz left first after our meals while I stayed behind to get some bubble tea drinks for my parents and congee from Crystal Jade for Mum. She wanted porridge from Food Court but since I just got my pay, I decided to get her something better instead. Got her scallop congee in the end. Glad she liked it. She even shared some with Baby!!
Andrew smsed me last night at 1am and I was already asleep. Slipped back to slumberland after I read his sms and guess what. I dreamt about him after that. LoL. Dunno whether I should/want to reply him anot after all. See how bah.
Caught the movie, Night at the museum 2 recently. Not bad, quite funny like Part 1. However some stupid moron was late for half an hour in the end I missed its beginning. Grrrr!
Really apologetic to Fion as Viyond and I did not help to be her jie mei eventually on her big day in August. Sori babe and thanks for asking us too. Like I mentioned to all, my energy span is short (yes yes I'm getting old..) and I cant dong the whole day de. Plus I dun really like weddings de, too much work, tiring and... sadness. Brings back lotsa memories. Every weddings I attended, I always feel emo inside... Anyway I will attend her customary though with Viyond.
Lotsa stuff I do not wish to share or disclose. I find it pointless to even talk about. Time shall prove everything. Only a few souls know a lil' here and there. But I really do not wanna discuss anything relating about r/s. Do not probe further. When time is ripe, I will spill the beans. However, I do not know if there will ever be such a moment....
Whatever will be will be....
Looking forward to my holiday in July.. But firstly.... I gotta go book first. Hehe..
Labels: This N' That
Written @
3:28 PM
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I know I have abandoned my blog cuz I really dun feel like blogging anymore. Inaccessibilty to internet as all know the PC is in my bro's room, tired due to work and my meeting up with frenz during my offdays. Each time I come online, I wun stay for long. Really nothing much to do too. Friendster, Facebook... I'm getting tired of them.
Off today and yet I woke up quite early and set off to Central to deposit my cheque. Called big Alicia after that as she's working at the Hub to see if she wanna meet up for lunch. That lady always complain that I'm living so near yet dun make the effort to meet her for lunch. Haha. OkOk.. today I meet you lorrr.
Went home straight and chatted with Sherry on the phone. We're supposed to meet April to celebrate Eveline's belated birthday. However as everything was planned the very last min, April couldn't join us in the end as she'll be meeting her bf. Left me and Sherry. But Eveline will be meeting her own friends in the evening thus it would be rather rush for us. We didn't meet up eventually.
Stayed home, online and washed my clothes. Dun think I will wanna go out later as my shift is morning tml.
Attended Yvonne's customary on last Sat at Inter-Continental Hotel. The bride was sooo beautiful and looked stunning that night. Seeing her soo blissful, I'm happy for her that she finally tied the knot with her 10 years long run bf. Qi and me stayed till the last dish before we made our way back. Everytime I attend a wedding, I will feel emo after that. Sadness maybe when lotsa thoughts flooded into my mind. Dun really like to attend weddings unless the gals are darlings to me.
Work has been sucky as our sales have been damn bad this month. What to do when everyone has decided to reduce their expenses. Can't point a gun and force them to buy what. Plus it's not only us, everywhere is having recession lor. However, the office dun see it this way of course! They only have figures in their eyes...
Sigh.
Soo difficult to meet up with Cass! Haven't go jalan with her for like... half a yr already?! Kaozzz... (-__-)""
Caught Angels & Demons on the 1st day of its showing. Read the book before, was trying to re-read it again to refresh my memory but halfway doing so, friend kept psycho me to watch. Was a lil' disappointed at first as the movie leaped a large part and lotsa scenes were different from the book. Even the major details like Leonardo Vetra who died turned out that Vittoria's partner was the 1st victim instead. Even dialogues spoken by the characters were switched. But still, overall it was a nice show. During the show, everyone became so sad when the Carmelango flew up the heli with the antimatter. I still continue to read the book tho after watching the show. Haha! I rate the movie 9.5/10
Planning a short holiday in July. Really need to getaway from SG badly. I
NEED a break from work... Hopefully I can save enough by then...
Woke up suddenly last night with a scream. My mum jostled from her slumber when she hear me shout. I was having cramps in my left leg. The nerves and veins inside felt as if they were gonna snap. She kept telling me to lay my leg straight but it was too painful. I kept telling her to go back to sleep and I'll be okay. While later, she came over and helped me stretched my leg straight and using her hand to soothe my tension.
I have always put up a brave front in front of my family. I dun wish to let them see my vulnerable side. I act tough most of the times, never letting them see me cry no matter how much pain I suffer outside. When mum did this act last night, when I felt her care for me, I felt so sad inside. Sighhhh. If only I am able to provide her a good life then she dun have to work soo hard at her age.
I'm sorry.
But I love you. Though I have never express it through any words or actions.
Labels: Recovering Phase, This N' That
Written @
4:18 PM
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
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My latest online tarot reading. 110% accurate as usual. From my result, can U guess what I've asked about? I guess it's rather obvious.
How you feel about yourself now (The Devil)
You are feeling that the temptation of a certain relationship, pastime or other form of pleasure is too hard to resist - its almost addictive. Question your motives, these sorts of situations aren’t generally good news. You may also have rather low self esteem at this time and feel that there’s not much hope for the future - don’t doubt your abilities, try to be more positive. Think carefully, you can still change direction.
What you most want at this moment (The Magician)
What you most want is a new love in your life, and when The Magician appears, a new love affair or perhaps a rekindled affair is at hand. All things new are possible, the result is up to you - its all dependent on just how much you want it.
Your fears (The High Priestess)
You are feeling uneasy and insecure, something in your gut is saying ‘be careful, all is not as it seems’ - something just doesn’t feel right. If so, delay any decisions or actions until you have answered your concerns. If male this could signify a significant woman in your life being a bad influence.
What is going for you (The Chariot)
Drive, drive, drive, that’s what’s going for you. You certainly aren’t a quitter that’s for sure. The appearance of The Chariot tells of conflicts ending in victory, so don’t give up, battle on and you will succeed. This is a time of movement and change. Expect a journey relating to work, and if you’ve had you’re eye on that car, it will soon be yours.
What is going against you (The Hierophant)
You are simply struggling to conform to others expectations of you and everybody has an opinion of what you should do. Perhaps you are having a crisis of faith and are unsettled at a very spiritual level. Ask yourself who you really are? What is important to you? What makes you happy? Seek out advice or wise counsel if you wish, but accepting who you really are and going after what you want instead of what others want for you is the most important.
Outcome (The Moon)
Whilst you are confused and fearful and allowing your anxieties to hold you back, trust that all will turn out well in the end. Things may seem tough or confusing but stick with it, its right for you. The Moon is a good omen if you are in a clandestine affair and helps guide us to open our minds to new and unexpected possibilities.
Labels: This N' That
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3:40 PM
